I have been doing a lot of thinking lately about my life and how somehow, I've just magically started settling in here..finally. It took me almost an entire year and let me tell you, there were some dark and difficult times but then, all of a sudden..I started feeling comfortable. I starting feeling at home and like I belonged here. First it was my chickens that grounded me here, after all, somebody needed to care for them. Then it was my garden..and then? It hit me..this is home. I belong here. I am...happy here. I can't tell you how long I've waited for this feeling to hit me! I was just discussing this feeling with Adam last week and he told me he noticed it in me as well. Something changed. Something just started to click. *And its a beautiful feeling*
This summer I worked hard in my garden, creating a haven for myself that I could go to and just be myself. I could talk amongst my flowers and watch my favorite foods grow before me, all because I planted them there with my very own hands. Foods I have eaten for years but never thought twice about where now sprouting out of nowhere! No longer where they just a picture on a seed packet, they were grown, sliced and diced right here before me. Biting in to my first cucumber is an experience I will never forget. I was nervous it would taste horrible, bitter, even. But it was crisp, cool and delicious. It was perfect! Now, every day I wander out to the yard, collecting tomatoes, zinnias, peppers, potatoes, beans and decide what to make for dinner based on my latest harvest. Its an amazing experience that I truly believe everyone needs to have for themselves.
My chickens are the other thing I am most proud of this summer. I knew I wanted them as soon as I laid eyes on my farmer and made plans to love him forever. I pictured our quaint farm with a full flock of clucking hens and he fulfilled my wish this past Spring with a starting flock of 15 of the most beautiful chicks I had ever laid eyes on. When I reached in to that cardboard box and picked up my very first chick {incidentally it turned out to be Lacey}, I had tears in my eyes from being so overwhelmed with how attached I already was to them. Those first few days they were here, I never left their side. Housework went by the wayside, it was all I could do not to sit and stare at them 24 hours a day. I marveled at how beautiful they were and how quickly they grew! To this day I still get excited every morning to wake up and have them be the first thing I do in a day! I walk down to their coop, gather fresh food for them and giggle as I get closer and here them anxiously cluck, knowing I'm on my way. When I open their door to let them out I love how they run thru the door and greet me so happily! They truly make this place feel more like a farm should feel. And tonight? They made me even more proud!
After going in to town to pick up some groceries, I came home to hear some more odd clucking noises coming from the coop. In the last few days since our infamous chicken rodeo, something happened. They started to change. The atmosphere felt different. They were still happy and clucking like crazy, but I could just feel that something had changed. And tonight, I found out why..
Yup, my chickens laid their very first egg!! I have been waiting and waiting for this day to come! I have been checking their coop daily to see any notifications that an egg might be on its way but became convinced it wasn't happening any time soon. But then I came around the corner, pail of freshly chopped carrot tops in hand and found this little beauty sitting on the floor of their pen, the chickens happily clucking around like nothing had happened. I was so shocked and excited that I barely looked around to really see if I could tell who laid this egg for me {I have 9 options to choose from}. There wasn't a specific chicken that looked shocked, scared or hurt so I gave a quick and general thank you to all my ladies and ran off to show my mother in law my latest exciting news! I can't tell you how proud I am to say my very own chickens laid this egg..I mean, I just can't wrap my head around it yet! A year ago today was my first day after quitting my job in the city..and now, look at me! Collecting eggs and gathering vegetables while my husband is out running the combine and celebrating with me via texts that we have our very first egg. Of course what Adam is really celebrating tonight?? Well he's pondering lifes basic questions, such as: Scrambled? Fried? Omelet? or Poached? the possibilities are endless...
I am so happy for you that you got to the point in your life where you know that you belong...that you have come home. Enjoy the harvesting, enjoy the pace...because it is ever changing.
ReplyDeleteThank you SO much Lynette for stopping by today, I always look forward to hearing from you and reading your kind comments. I hope you are doing well :)
Deleteawww Dawn, this made me cry and feel even happier for you!! I can hear the love you have for this new life and your babies and garden!! How proud you should be of all you've learned and done this year!! Love the way you wrote this, finding "HOME" does feel pretty awesome doesn't it!! I think it's cool you came from the city to the country, like a fairy tale with your prince!!
ReplyDeleteCONGRATULATIONS AND HAPPY ONE YEAR ON THE FARM, YOU MADE THE RIGHT DECISION!!
Looking forward to hearing about life on the farm in the fall, it's my favorite too. Thanks so much for the comment on my blog, Rich just brought in 5 more little mini pumpkins for me. LOVE THEM!!
So happy to have met you Dawn, you are a true blessing in my life! Take care and enjoy the long holiday weekend! HUGS!
OH NO, FORGOT TO MENTION ABOUT YOUR EGG!! HOORAY HOORAY for the first egg, finally the day has come. Good job MAMA with your ladies. So what did you make out of that egg???